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| Family Karaoke night...yeah, we're fun like that. |
TRUTH: We know very little of the adoption world, more than the average person for sure, but definitely below average in the adoption world. As I throw myself more into it, I realize I have barely even scratched the surface. Which has left me feeling like a really bad mom. Not a bad mom to Winston and Eve...in fact, I have no problem saying that I am an excellent mother to those two. They are plump and healthy, developmentally right on track, and are involved in an array of activities on just about any given day of the week. But to that sweet little babe (or maybe even toddler) that we are searching to find....this week I just felt inadequate and defeated.
I joined an adoption support group online, and it has been so helpful in learning to navigate through the adoption world that is so complex. I've learned that our options are bigger than just independent/private/social media or an agency. We could find an attorney that specializes in adoptions and specifically waits for birth mothers to come in and then match them with hopeful adoptive couples they already have waiting. I also learned we should reach out to attorneys out of state and that there is an awesome attorney in Arkansas that specifically helps place Pacific Islander babies. So, that is hopeful for us. But on Thursday, after reading post after post of all the things I could be doing to get closer to finding our baby, I felt defeated, frustrated, and in all honesty, just plain down on myself. How can we find our baby, if we don't know half of the things we need to be doing?
Luckily for me, today in Church, I was reminded that with God, all things are possible, "that the family is ordained of God" as stated in The Family Proclamation, and that He is orchestrating every aspect of our family gathering. As I've said before, our decision to adopt right now has little to do with our struggle to conceive on our own. But everything to do with the fact that we believe there is a baby out there waiting to join our family through adoption. I know that God has a master plan for our family and that if we keep at it, we'll all find each other. Let's just hope it's sooner rather than later, or this mama is about to lose her mind. Just kidding. 😂 I'll end with my favorite scripture and our family theme of the year. It is applicable no matter what stage of life you are in, or the trail you are facing at this time.
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| Mari's masters graduation in April. |
I joined an adoption support group online, and it has been so helpful in learning to navigate through the adoption world that is so complex. I've learned that our options are bigger than just independent/private/social media or an agency. We could find an attorney that specializes in adoptions and specifically waits for birth mothers to come in and then match them with hopeful adoptive couples they already have waiting. I also learned we should reach out to attorneys out of state and that there is an awesome attorney in Arkansas that specifically helps place Pacific Islander babies. So, that is hopeful for us. But on Thursday, after reading post after post of all the things I could be doing to get closer to finding our baby, I felt defeated, frustrated, and in all honesty, just plain down on myself. How can we find our baby, if we don't know half of the things we need to be doing?
Luckily for me, today in Church, I was reminded that with God, all things are possible, "that the family is ordained of God" as stated in The Family Proclamation, and that He is orchestrating every aspect of our family gathering. As I've said before, our decision to adopt right now has little to do with our struggle to conceive on our own. But everything to do with the fact that we believe there is a baby out there waiting to join our family through adoption. I know that God has a master plan for our family and that if we keep at it, we'll all find each other. Let's just hope it's sooner rather than later, or this mama is about to lose her mind. Just kidding. 😂 I'll end with my favorite scripture and our family theme of the year. It is applicable no matter what stage of life you are in, or the trail you are facing at this time.
"Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend."
*Mosiah 4:9
*Mosiah 4:9
I believe. Do you?
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